Shodo Harada Roshi
Dogen Zenji wrote in the
Shobogenzo about the most basic Koan of all:
To study the way is to study the self
To study the self is to forget the self
To forget the self is to be enlightened by all things
To be enlightened by all things is to remove the barrier between self and
other.
In this way he taught the most basic Buddha Dharma.
Learning the Buddha's way isn't about grasping grand concepts or mastering
exotic philosophies. It's not about contemplating the beginning of the universe
or changing careers and earning more money. Nor is it about being respected by
others for following some noble truth. To really learn the Buddha's way is to
meet and encounter the true you; there you will discover the true Buddha. When
a deep place is realized directly, we know the source of the universe from our
own experience. Each and every person's life energy and health are aligned in
doing this.
Knowing our true self isn't about understanding the
commonly held idea of a self. Our true self is not the modern idea of an ego
and not some character or personality that can be mentally designed. Neither is
it some legal entity or created persona.
When the Buddha said, "In all the heavens and in
all of the earth there is only One," that was humans' basic truth spoken
just as it is. A brand-new baby has no information or knowledge or life
experience, but it still has the full light of the heavens and earth radiating
through it. This radiance is the ultimate root of all human beings and their
source. Instead of allowing that life energy to become hardened into an ego, we
can be one with society and with the heavens and earth. Being at one with
society and the heavens and earth is the truest base for us and our life
energy.
This is why the Buddha said to look inside ourselves
and take refuge there, rather than looking for refuge in anything outside. This
is the self that is of the Dharma. The Buddha also said, "Who sees me sees
the Dharma, and who sees the Dharma sees me." This self is the Dharma,
exactly.
Ancients called this the Busshin or Bussho, Buddha
Nature or Buddha Mind. It was also called the great-clear-bright-round-perfect-mirror-mind,
or was said to be mind as is. It was also referred to as the self that is
embracing all things, and Rinzai Zenji called it the true person of no rank
which comes and goes through the openings of this physical body. This is not
something that can be known conceptually but is that which perceives through
all of our senses and apertures.
Joshu used "mu" to refer to this true self
which is not a name, nor a form, nor an ability. Hakuin Zenji called it the
sound of one hand clapping.
Today modern philosophy calls it the absolute
characterless self; to have awareness-experiencing-awareness is another way it
is put. But there is no need for difficult words here. We need to let go of the
ideas of form, of being male or female, old or young, rich or poor, good or
bad. We have to let go of all of those expressions and of any idea of having or
not having. We have to let go of any explanation and become life energy itself.
This true self must at least once be realized clearly.
Our truest self is not something that has to be analysed,
explained, and accounted for. It's nothing like that; it's completely separate
from all of that. We have to awaken to our original true nature and clarify it.
We have to let go of the modern idea of an ego and a legal entity of a self, of
all our hardened concepts of who and what and how we are.
To study the way is to study the self
To study the self is to forget the self
To forget the self is to be enlightened by all things
To be enlightened by all things is to remove the barrier between self and
other.
Humans in every situation have a difficult time
letting go of that ego. If we don't, we can't realize that true self that the
ancients talked about. We get caught on the outer layers of the kimono and
can't see the true essence underneath.
To study the self is to forget the self
The ancients said that we must do this as we come and
also as we go, all the time, never missing a beat. All of the Patriarchs
struggled through this letting go of one's own thoughts and ideas about things
to see the true energy and return to it. This is called the Great Death.
Many negating words such as void and empty are used to
describe this. We don't want to hear about something that seems so negative; we
want to live in a world of joy and positive ideas. But this Mu is not such a
plain mu or energy. An infinite existence is inside this mu.
To forget the self is to be enlightened by all things
To be enlightened by all things is to remove the barrier between self and
other.
This is to know the true self and go beyond any
separation. Right there, a huge, wideopen state of mind is born, and from
there we return to our regular awareness. This is where the flower blooms on
the iron tree. But if we do not die totally first, we can't realize this
flowering, just as people have a hard time realizing satori if they are not
aware of their delusions first.
At the Niruzen River, after being on the mountain for
six years doing ascetic training, the Buddha once again entered zazen and let
go of everything. He entered the absolute state of mu, forgetting everything
that is. We have to enter this state of mind, or we can't know the true meaning
of Buddhism. But that deepest darkness is not yet the furthest point. We let go
of everything and come and go from that deep, dark place. Then we know the
ultimate state of mind from which the Buddha saw the morning star and said,
"That's it! That's it! That's me!" Hakuin heard the morning bell
ringing and was suddenly awakened. The samadhi of mu can also be broken through
by hearing the wind--the mu becomes the wind, and we know that we ourselves
have become that. Without an ego we realize the truest Self. That which is not
our ego becomes the true Self, and then we can realize that everything is our
true Self. Only once we have forgotten our manufactured self can we be
confirmed by all of the ten thousand things.
Put simply, we swap an other for our self.
This is like a parent who always puts the needs of the
child first. The parent gives everything for the child's cultivation, no matter
how miserable or dirty or painful. Only by knowing this true self can we be
truly educated. In a single flower or one moment's scenery we can realize this
true self. It is our duty to manifest this and become it.
Poets finds this true self in the rain and wind and
all growing things and write about it. Sales people find it in what they sell
and through the people they encounter. Scientists find truth in what they
research--when for the first time we find this true self we see how the whole
universe works, and this is what it means to realize Buddha. To encounter that
true self is to see everything become Buddha.
To forget the self is to be enlightened by all things
To be enlightened by all things is to remove the barrier between self and
other.
This means that we know that the world is who we are
and that we are all already in liberated harmony. This is our most basic koan,
in which we are all confirmed by all others and we see that all of us are one
great being, that it is all me.
People who are alive will always die, and what laughs
will always cry, but all of it is mu. When we experience the truth directly, we
are always laughing with this world and with this true emptiness. We then know
mu completely.
If all day long we continue, whether we are coming or
going, then the iron tree gives forth a flower. Born as a human in this world,
we can encounter this awakening of our true mind. We will see how wonderful it
is to be human and know that this is the greatest good fortune. To realize this
directly is the greatest thing we can do.
This is not the good fortune of a single generation.
For all those to come, we know this true joy and give birth to that true self.
This is the truth of the Buddha Dharma.
The iron tree blossoms,
the whole wide world is spring.